Ladybugs & Stinkbugs

Sunday:
Woke up at 9am and went down to the lobby for breakfast. Mom and Dad had made it during the night so they were down having breakfast, and to hear the kids, they hadn't seen Granny in about 2 years. They were so surprised and excited! Sandy and Katie, and Nanny were also there. This is a big treat. =)

So we had breakfast, then the kids begged and begged and finally got to go swimming in the pool. We've had a relaxing morning and now we're looking towards lunch, and I think that today will be restful. I'm glad for emotional and physical peace, because it's very hard not knowing what's going to be happening in the next few days.

It's a very strange feeling when you leave your home and not know what you will be coming back to. Part of you does not really believe that anything bad could happen while you're gone. I mean, even though you're making all of these plans, there's part of you in the back of your mind that is sure everyone is overreacting and that it is silly to get so worried about it.

But then you remember the last time, and you realize that it's possible that everyone is overreacting, but it's just as likely that they are not. Since you don't know (and by the time you DO know, it's too late), you just go ahead and get everything ready. And in the middle of packing baby books and birth certificates, you realize that you might come home to nothing. You don't expect it, but once that possibility truly enters your mind, it is a very frightening thing.

This faith and trust deal is hard. It's really easy to say "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away" whenever you're at the "giving" part. When you're facing the "takes away" part it's a totally different story. Still, as Jeremy & I drove away, we both said, "Blessed be the name of the Lord." Whatever happens, we know he is in control. We are following him, wherever this leads. And, as Steven Curtis Chapman says, this is the Great Adventure.